The Countdown has begun

I really dread this time of year, not only are the holidays over & all of the fun with family, but it's also cold, snowy & January. I started to cringe at 12:01am on Friday, January 1st. January brings a lot of sorrow into my life & I have been counting down the days to the anniversary of Carter's death. It started this past Tuesday when I realized there were 13 days left, then 12...11....10 is where I'm at today. I don't remember conciously doing that last year, but I think it's my way of preparing for it. Yes I am sad everyday of the year & I do somewhat dread his birthday & other holidays, but nothing is worse than remembering the day your baby died.

I miss him terribly & know that I will once again be reunited with my youngest son, when my time on Earth is done. Until then my mission is to advocate for babies, in hopes that any parent I meet will not have to endure the guilt, shame & grief that I have felt since his death.

Happy Veteran's Day!

Thank you to all who have served our country & those that continue to do so. Thank you to their families who sacrifice so much! Today I am remembering my grandpa who served in the Navy during WWII & Michael Scholl KIA Nov 14, 2006. My friend Michael, as well as many others, paid the ultimate price for our freedom. Praying for his family this week, especially his 3 year old daughter who never got to meet her daddy, but one day will. America, Home of the FREE, because of the BRAVE!

Finally!!

The living room is finally painted! That makes me soo happy & i'm pretty pleased with the way it turned out. I still need to find a big wall clock & and add a window treatment.

I need your help, I'd like to put vinyl lettering on one of the walls between the dark brown stripes. I want a family or religious quote but I haven't been able to come up with the PERFECT one. Any ideas???

Next rooms on the agenda: Carmen's pink n brown cowgirl room & Carter's Angel Hallway. I'm also open to suggestions for either of those!

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Guest Speaker!!

We got a call Wednesday night, that Cordell was expected to be at Abbott for a guest speaker Thursday. Well when they got there they learned it was none other than Mr. Bo Pelini. He gave a great speech to the boys about always doing your best in everything. He said, "C's aren't good enough & if I can't trust my players off the field, then I can't trust them on the field. Cordell was pretty fired up when he came home & was begging for me to buy him Husker tickets. Yeah right kid, I just went to my very first game last year at the age of 27. You think I'm gonna buy you tickets when you are 7???

This is a partial group pic of the football players, coaches & Bo Pelini. Cordell is in the red shirt right in front of Pelini & Jake was standing just to his left, but got cut out of the pic!

Then the text message came this morning, offering a FREE ticket to either myself or my son, for tomorrow nights game. I asked him if he wanted to go & his jaw dropped & his eyes got wide. I sure hope he can concentrate at school today!

New Furniture!!

We went to Omaha last weekend for Cordell's last football game & then ran over to Nebraska Furniture Mart to pick out furniture. I had done my research online & they had some that I liked, I just wanted to try it out & make sure it was comfy. It took me a minute to locate it, I sat down & Jake says "That is ugly." I was bummed, but knew if I wanted it, I would get it. We sit there for a minute & he says "it's actually pretty comfy." Well long story short, they had it in stock & we bought it. The saleswoman was pushing their no interest financing on us, but Jake kept saying, I'm paying cash. I asked to get a discount for cash, so they knocked $20 off, better than nothing.

So I have been painting & preparing all week for it to be delivered tomorrow. It's the first furniture we have EVER purchased, everything else has always been hand-me-downs. Now to only keep the kids & dog off of it to keep it nice, HA!

Have you ever....

Had a really stressful week? You don't sleep well & then wake up with a headache? With a sick little girl, I've had 2 nights like that this week, poor thing coughs so hard & wakes everyone up. Then with the move & not finding out until yesterday that we were still on for close today. I've been a crabby little bee until this morning, one man changed all of that.

I stopped at the gas station on my way into work to grab a soda, as I was walking out to my car I passed a gentleman & what from my wondering ears did I hear?? "Good Morning" I couldn't believe it, he wasn't some creepy old guy hitting on me, he was a 30-something polite guy that made my day. Sometimes it's the little things we do, going out of our way to be polite to strangers!

Last Sat I stopped at a gas station & I had a teenage boy walk back to the door just to hold it open for me. You know the kind, by appearnces you may judge them as a troublemaker, but his momma must have taught him some manners. And to think my hands weren't even full.

My biggest pet peeve is rude people. You know the kind, like at Wal-Mart, pushing & shoving, standing in your way like they own the aisle. The ones that bump into you & keep walking. Well I just want to challenge you to go out of your way today & be extra courteous to a complete stranger. Afterall, it might just make their day brighter!